What happened after I used Ai for TTC

I wrote my post on Ai & TTC a whole year ago. I didn't publish it. It sat in my drafts for 365 days while I prayed, while I mustered the courage to revisit our Maternal Fetal Specialist in Scottsdale and revisit our Reproductive Endocrinologist that helped us conceive our only rainbow baby since Julian. It was hard and nauseating to revisit these doctors. It brought up so many buried grief feelings to the surface. But it was so worth it!