Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be stronger men. Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers. Pray for powers equal to your tasks. Then the doing of your work shall be no miracle, but you shall be the miracle -Phillips Brooks
Welcome to Sweet Julian! I'm a thirty something mama to four lovelies. Two miracles whom I hold in my arms and two whom I hold in my heart until resurrection day. Since the loss of my Sweet baby Julian, I've reimagined my life to focus less on outward signaling and more on being present in life, enjoying family and nurturing the spirit. As a mama and wife I try to live in the present momemt where I can soak up all the tiny blessings life has been able to offer. My heart is at it's happiest when I can enjoy the beauty of nature and travel to new and interesting places. I like to capture all of the above things in this mish mash of a mom's blog, photography and my paintings!
Sweet Julian is a mom's blog and not a baby loss blog for a reason. During the first six months after losing Julian, I scoured baby loss and stillbirth blogs. There are countless blogs out there, they are oh' so helpful, God bless each and every one of them! But a majority of these blogs seemed to have one thing in common, abandonment!
People initially keep up with their postings but after moving on to a new pregnancy, becoming mothers again and living out their lives, grief takes a back seat and soon there's less and less to write about. It's understandable that one would reach a level of acceptance and find the will to move on with their lives. It's absolutely wonderful!
However, it was often very disappointing for me to read these blogs to no where. What happened after your loss story? How did you manage to get back on your feet? What helped you get there and is there a glimmer of hope for life after loss? Do we all just slowly drift away from our babies' memory at the birth of our subsequent child?
Through Sweet Julian and my personal experiences, I hope to answer all of those questions for you. There is life after loss, it does include new beautiful experiences, it does include new life in many forms, I will let you know what helps me get there and I will not forget why I started this blog. My faith, my travels, my creative projects and my mothering are all the things that soothe and heal this broken heart. I pray it may also bring healing to you!
Join me as I live, love, learn & heal!